Random...12 more days

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I was sitting there...floating on my cloud...wondering, when in the world this school year was ever going to end?  It was been the longest one to date. I don't know if this goes on in other professions but around May teachers get cranky, fed up and well...done.  We need the break to unclench, rewind and get back to loving our jobs. 

I have started over sleeping. It only occurs at the end of May.  We are getting there.

On a side note....

• I have signed up for my Conceal to Carry class.  I'm excited and terrified.  I'm not what you would call a huntress.  Nor could I ever be accused of being a big game hunter, or hobby skeet shooter.  But there are times when safe is better than sorry.  In this case I wonder if safe is really that safe.  
• My blood sugar has been through the stinking roof.  Not like put me in a coma high, but more yikes...what the hell is wrong with my pancreas! So on mother's day I started back to the high fiber, no friends diet.  Should melt away the pounds, clean my colon, and set fire to all the nose hair of those near me. Day three...and I am ready for a giant cookie, and a bag of chips...not looking good.
• I got a new phone.  I know that this news is most likely only exciting to me.  However, it is a Galaxy sII. It does everything I could ever dream of a phone doing.  I am in love. 
• Only 12 days of school left...but who is counting. 

Twelve is my lucky number.  I think that is why I teach 7 graders. >:) 

Reflections of what could be...

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Looking back I saw you. 

Or, was I looking forward?

Your hand was on my back, leading me. 

Or, were you pushing me out of the way?

We should have had that night.

I've dreamed it, ten million times.

I tried. 

It fell apart. We fell apart. 

Or, we were never that together.

Fantasy is sometimes better staying what it is.

How is it I still think of you?

Feel you? Want you? 

You are like a poison I can't scrape out of my veins

filling me, taking me over. 

Reflecting back to me ideas of what could of what could be...

ideas of you and me.

Mother's Hands

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Angry and new I reached for you. 

That same hand landed hard when I had done wrong. 

Sitting on your lap I would trace your finger nails and look at my own. 

Over the years those hands have become grandmother's.

My hands have grown into yours. 

Still, reaching out for you.

Desert Scorned

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The desert called softly with hoarse tongue. 

Dried lips nibbled up my silky legs.

Pushing me on the back of the wind.

Lifted.

Carried and placed in the middle of spartan land 

Only your eyes were watching. 

Taking note. 

Tainted with poison, the pen bleeds.

It splatters onto my freshly polished feet. 

Stains refuse to wash away.

Sand pulls and tugs to no avail.

Macbeth's hands know the scar or is it now me?

It is our connection your chains

They cut into my neck.

Suffocating.

Screeched across the crowded space your voice lingers.

It holds on. 

Clawing, and scraping against bone. 

You aren't there, not where I can hold you. 

Just a hand. 

Is it too much?

Tell me...whisper it in my ear. 

Say it, I feel it through typed words. 

I want to see it fall freely from your dry lips.

Give it to me, please. 

Asthma, Spring Colds and the Hope of a Hunky Rescue

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Graaawwwl!  It is time...it is time! The clock has ticked to the hour, that no one in the house wanted to see.  Hack, cough, sneeze...spring cold is here.  It is ridiculous the regularity that it hits.  It will come back in the summer and again in the fall.  The same each time: head stuffiness, followed by sneezing, then drainage and then the big dog bites, and the coughing and wheezing takes hold.  

I am in the big dog stage...so I get the ultimate pick me up in the morning...breathing treatments. Who doesn't love heading to school feeling yourself quiver in your skin?  Pretty sure this is what doing crack feels like. 

On the bright side...the field trip is tomorrow.  Time to dig into a quarter of chicken, potatoes, a cobbett and filtered water with my bare hands while I watch horses run back and forth and smell industrial bleach.  I am hoping that the horse dander won't kick off some kind of asthmatic attack where dark and hunky firemen have to rescue me.  Maybe throw in some sweet mouth to mouth as they carry my slight self out of there....hold on I am having a moment.  Nice. I can hope.  

Keep your fingers crossed for me.  

Well, eXtremely late, Yikes Zeees

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Well, about that April A to Z blog challenge...It is kind of like this...so you see...when you are in the middle of a blog challenge and suddenly out of no where your internet goes out your blog challenge life comes to an abrupt halt.  So...this counts as the last four...I know a complete cheat.  I will be better next year.  I promise.

Random updates...

• We had to export grades for the last 6 weeks progress reports.  Check it off the list.  Ding...we got a winner only a few short weeks to go then summer time fun time begins. And by that I mean my life as a nassy little hermit can return. 
• I volunteered, again.  I should stop this.  It only leads to stress and upsetness.  But yes I did it. I volunteered to take this special training to learn about Mind Maps.  I am one day into the five I have to do.  I got a cool binder.  The rumor is we get another one tomorrow.  I will survive. 4 days to go. 
• On a complete side note...I am wondering what teaching strategy I can copyright and make a ton of money on even though it has been around forever. I know!  I can write about this thing called teaching students using groups...just throwing out ideas at this stage.  
• The internet has been broken for the last five days.  It felt like 1990 around here.  Except back then I had internet.  I had some mad DOS skills, don't be jealous.  Not last week.  Instead I sat hunched over my phone wishing my eyes were better and my fingers were smaller. Damn you genetic sausage fingers and bad vision!  The little man came today and fixed us all up. Life is good.  Welcome home web! 
• Last week I got an interesting scary lesson on the power of my blog. Nothing else to say about that. 
• Random question...how a good a deal do you think I could get on a house loan with completely crappy credit?  Don't worry I have a ton of equity...okay not really.  Just have a hankering to move suddenly.  For no reason...just asking.
• Pretty sure we might be nearing a full moon.  I am not an expert so don't take my word for it.  But I have a feeling we could be close.
• I think I am ready for some chocolate wine.  I deserve it. 

And on that awkward note I leave you my most favorite song...for today.  Just because...it brings back memories.