I have been absent from my dear blog.
It has been several days since I wrote. I have had several big life changing things occur this week. I was diagnosed with a "large" gall stone sitting in the neck of my gall bladder. Until this week I didn't know that my gall bladder had a neck. Every time I eat something with fat or tough to digest my gall bladder releases bile and it pushes this "large" stone, grinding it into the soft tissue of the neck. Which I have to say hurts like you wouldn't believe. Irritating news, but not life changing. Means that I will have to consume minimal fats and watch those hard to digest foods. Pretty sure the surgeon will suggest surgery...I am fine with it. I'm not a fan of pain.
A few days later I learned that I have type 2 diabetes. Irritating, not surprising. I am a bit of a chubby bunny. I have an appointment to start "working on" my diagnoses. Until then I have to watch my carbs and sugars. So if you are keeping a list that means no fat, no carbs, no "tough to digest foods," and no sugar. The list of foods that remain...not so exciting. The great news...in three weeks I have lost 20 pounds. So basically I rock.
If the doctor had one of those frequent customer cards I would have a pocket full of free visits saved up. Between all of this the pneumonia and the blood clot there has been a lot going on.
I spend a ton of time trying to figure out what I can eat. Chicken is my saving grace. I consume more veggies than I thought possible. I feel hungry...and am grumpy most days but I feel better. Lighter. I am excited about the fast purging of weight. It has me looking at all those exciting summer clothes I will be wearing. In between the calorie counting, the recipe searching, working 60 hours a week...my writing has suffered. All of it.
I feel like I am coming out of the other side. I think I am finding my balance. My friends at work have been super encouraging and helpful. They always seem to be there when I need them, even when I don't ask... they help. It is what they do.
I have a super stack of papers I have been avoiding all week. Stupid essay test. Then there is that WIP it has so much dust I am not even sure I remember what it is about. Better jump back into the balance.... deuces.